Losing Hope… Review

Losing Hope
In the follow-up to Colleen Hoover’s #1 New York Times bestseller Hopeless, the charming and irresistible Dean Holder tells the passionate story that has melted thousands of hearts.
In Hopeless, Sky left no secret unearthed, no feeling unshared, and no memory forgotten, but Holder’s past remained a mystery.
Still haunted by the little girl he let walk away, Holder has spent his entire life searching for her in an attempt to finally rid himself of the crushing guilt he has felt for years.  But he could not have anticipated that the moment they reconnect, ever greater remorse would overwhelm him…
Sometimes in life, if we wish to move forward, we must first dig deep into our past and make amends.  In Losing Hope, best selling author Colleen Hoover reveals what was going on inside Holder’s head during all those hopeless moments—and whether he can gain the peace he desperately needs.

My 5 star review
In Hopeless, my heart was ripped out, put back in, ripped out again, and put back in, over and over again.  I shed many tears with a heavy heart.  Losing Hope is no different.  This may be from Holder’s POV, his most inner thoughts, but it is not the same story as Hopeless… No it is much more.
The connection that these two characters have is undeniable.  You probably thought so in Hopeless, but you will know for sure that I am right after reading Losing Hope.  I was blown away by Colleen’s ability to retell a story in such a way that it almost felt like a whole different story, yet telling the same story at the same time. 
Holder’s character is an amazing young man.  Struggling with his sister’s suicide.  His own grief and anger.  Yet trying to hold on to the one he lost years ago, if not for him, but for Les.  This book recants not just his struggle with coming to terms of who Sky is, but coming to terms that his sister’s suicide was in fact not such a horrible thing.  He holds blame within himself for so many things, he has a hard time holding on. 
We get to see the love Holder has for Sky.  We get to find out what he was thinking and doing while Sky was suffering; while she was feeling.  He gives us so much insight to the story of Holder and Sky that we never thought could exist.
“And when I say perfect, I mean imperfect, because there’s just so much wrong with her.  But everything wrong with her is everything that draws me in and makes her perfect.”
This is a journey of self-discovery and acceptance.  It takes on the original story and turns it into a much bigger saga than one can imagine.  If you thought Holder was stuck in your head before, he will remain there for even longer after this book!
But I did love you.  I loved you so much.
I open my hand and press it flat against her heart.  “The night I found out I was Hope?  I told you I wanted to be alone in my room.  When I woke up and saw you in my bed I wanted to cry, Holder.  I wanted to cry because I needed you there with me so bad.  I knew in that moment that I was in love with you.  I was in love with the way you loved me.  When you wrapped you arms around me and held me, I knew that no matter what happened with my life, you were my home.  You stole the biggest piece of my heart that night.”
I didn’t steal it.  You gave it to me.
She lowers her mouth to mine and I drop my head back against the mattress and let her kiss me.  “Keep them open,” she whispers, pulling away from my lips.  I do what she says and somehow open my eyes again, looking directly into hers.  “I want you to keep them open…because I need you to watch me give you the very last piece of my heart.”